side effects

i trace the shadows
that float across the grass
as they disappear and reappear
while the light above the barn
flickers through the window;
i am reminded that the pictures in the distance
appear to be more alive
than i could ever feel

(theres a monster living inside me
squeezing tears out of me
and controlling shit for me
just because it thinks that i don’t know
who i should be)

~ by spittingspeech on March 30, 2009.